I am not the New Years resolution type of person. The truth is I am not that excited about a new year right now. The past couple years have been very difficult for me. This time of year brings back memories of the past years and their hardships are ingrained in my mind. I am trying to focus on the positive but the negative seems to take over. Maybe because I have had a horrible painful month with my mystery illness. Maybe because I miss my family. Maybe because I need God right now and He feels so far away. Maybe because the weather is gray. Maybe because I worry too much. Maybe because I am stressed from all the above.
I need renewal...
So I pray God can make this year a year of renewal for me. A year of strength and courage. A year of contentment in my situation. A year of growing closer to my heavenly father. A year of leaning on Him and not my own understanding.
But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31